Fic Conundrum
May. 12th, 2017 11:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
haemophilusI realize I totally have other stuff to be doing right now but fuck it, I'm gonna muse on this for a few minutes.
I guess i feel like I'm in a bit of a pickle with one of the stories I'm considering writing right now. Basically, I have this cool story in my head that I'm passionate about where Mac befriends like this gutter-punk guy in the 90s and gets kinda involved in the scene and they have a weird almost-relationship that you have when you're young and gay and confused. I love the setting and I love my OC and I think it's the only project I'm actually passionate about right now but here's my deal.
I don't think anyone on earth wants to read it. Like nobody. Which usually isn't an issue for me because most people don't read my writing anyway but I suspect that people will want to read this less than usual.
I don't want to be that person who writes for hits because fandom isn't really about that. I'm really not in it for the hits at all, honestly. But like, I am in love with this project a lot and I'm kinda bummed out by the knowledge that nobody is going to love it as much as me. So I feel creatively stagnant a bit because I can't really force myself into interest in other projects but at the same time I know the reaction to this is going to be deeply disappointing.
I think another bit of disappointment is just going to be that there is so much gen out there for Dennis in college and stuff but there's like nothing for Mac and it bums me out but at the same time like I know why it doesn't exist. People either like ship fic or they assume nobody is going to read their shit.
Anyway, I should probably just write it anyway and throw it into the world and not care.
I guess i feel like I'm in a bit of a pickle with one of the stories I'm considering writing right now. Basically, I have this cool story in my head that I'm passionate about where Mac befriends like this gutter-punk guy in the 90s and gets kinda involved in the scene and they have a weird almost-relationship that you have when you're young and gay and confused. I love the setting and I love my OC and I think it's the only project I'm actually passionate about right now but here's my deal.
I don't think anyone on earth wants to read it. Like nobody. Which usually isn't an issue for me because most people don't read my writing anyway but I suspect that people will want to read this less than usual.
I don't want to be that person who writes for hits because fandom isn't really about that. I'm really not in it for the hits at all, honestly. But like, I am in love with this project a lot and I'm kinda bummed out by the knowledge that nobody is going to love it as much as me. So I feel creatively stagnant a bit because I can't really force myself into interest in other projects but at the same time I know the reaction to this is going to be deeply disappointing.
I think another bit of disappointment is just going to be that there is so much gen out there for Dennis in college and stuff but there's like nothing for Mac and it bums me out but at the same time like I know why it doesn't exist. People either like ship fic or they assume nobody is going to read their shit.
Anyway, I should probably just write it anyway and throw it into the world and not care.
